How I save my mental energy.

Number one: Practice mindfulness

When you put yourself out for others without practice of any mindfulness your soon be drained when you don’t know how to protect yourself.

Number two: Give permission.

Give yourself permission to help others but always close the doors after, by this I mean tell yourself they do not have permission to use your energy. You can practice this with meditation.

Number three: Acknowledgement.

Ever get the feeling of anger or sadness over come you so strong for no reason? Acknowledge your environment be present your come to find you are taking in someone else’s emotions like a sponge and acknowledgement is a step closer to controlling it.

Remind yourself of these three rules daily and you will find that it really helps you be who you want to be.

I sometimes still let people in and I can become very fatigued so When I step aside and practice this everything makes sense again.

Today I have given time to myself that means no one else’s energy has permission to enter mine and if that means spending time alone with just me and the pup then so be it.

My wild flowers.

I’m energy saving for the next day and that is important. you will find your way of saving energy and mine is being with nature.

Finding small hobbies have saved me from wasting time over thinking keep yourself busy and use your energy on something beautiful that deserves it.

Dealing with Anxiety in today’s society.

Learning how to fit into a society with crippling anxiety is draining , somedays every thought it consumed by your other self who whispers irrational ideas in your head , creates paranoia and self doubt.

Anxiety is not what society typically describes as your panic attack scenario, it creeps out in other ways, you can forget who your true self is when your anxiety infests your brain like a parasite.

Some people have anxiety due to trauma , some people have anxiety that comes along with depression, some people suffer with it every day and some may suffer from anxiety for just one day.

It is different for every indiviual.

They tell you “do breathing exercises , eat healthier , get to bed early and don’t drink caffeine” you can invest all the time in the world reading self help books, meditate , exercise and stay away from negative people.

You know you can improve your anxiety but its there for life it may come to stay for just a while then leave again. You can feel so alone all your friends are moving forward they have their lives under control but what about mine?

You feel guilty that you have no reason to feel this way, your life is good and you should be grateful for all you have.

You make your self ill with worry and your body listens , your immune system is low and you are exhausted from the insomnia.

This is how I often feel , I know their are other young people like me and I hope just expressing how it feels to be suffering from anxiety alleviates you when you feel alone.

I have quit two job’s because the environment was not helping my mental health , I have gone without money because I know my sanity is more important.

My big step to recovery is excepting that this is who I am , I except I cannot work in certain environments, I except that working long hours does not benefit me, I except that I need help and support from professionals and I am very lucky to have the support from my partner, family and friends.

My next step is finding the Job that will save me from my own anxiety disorder.

Mid-week deliciously tasteful salad.

I thought it would be nice to share my dad’s salad recipe, we don’t like boring salads in our house.

We have always made tasteful salad’s before “colourful salad” was a trend. This is probably the reason I finished my dinner and would eat my greens when I was young.

To start:

  • Add a big handful of spinach
  • Add chopped cucumber
  • Add 1 whole Avocado
  • Add chopped tomatoes
  • Add finely chopped celery
  • Add chopped gherkin
  • Add diced beetroot
  • Add tinned black chickpeas
  • A Tablespoon of flaxseed
  • A Tablespoon of mixed seed
  • A Tablespoon of piccalilli mustard
  • A squeeze of lemon
  • Pinch of Himalayn salt
  • Pinch of Pepper.

To finish lightly fry sugar snaps and mangetout in olive oil and add to the salad.

Moving on …

Next cook up some Ditali pasta add lemon juice and decorate with tomatoes.

Not everyone likes mushroom but we added fried chestnut mushrooms to our meal and of course we finish the meal with stone baked rolls and stuffed vine leaves pictured below.


My Career

Veterinary Nursing Assistant

How many times me and my friends have to explain “no we are not veterinary surgeons” when explaining that we are also not veterinary nurses it all gets very confusing for everyone, We end up telling them we are like Health care assistants but for animals.

Being a veterinary nursing assistant isn’t always a recognised profession, it is only really heard of in the uk and even then private veterinary practices don’t employ us. You will find us working at big charity hospitals like the Blue cross, PDSA, RSPCA. I have 3 1/2 years experience working at a busy hospital doing long shifts and night shifts included.

I qualified late last year and earned my badge I finally had the qualification to start a great career little did I know that I was struggling with my mental health after working so hard I found that my job was effecting me severely , so for now I have decided to take time away from being a veterinary nursing assistant and start a new journey (to have a break from my previous role) and take on the role as a veterinary receptionist.

Who knows what my future holds ? I may move away from the veterinary profession all together or go on to do my Veterinary Nursing, it is a confusing time for me at the moment and I don’t want to make a decision.


The start of my journey.

Recently discovering I am an empath and why my journey as an adult has been so difficult for me to fit in, changing my career after studying for 3 years and finding a job that doesn’t drain me emotionally, getting engaged, living with my parents at age 24 and trying to save to move out.

follow me on this journey to find out how to cope as an empath ,while changing careers, planning a wedding and hopefully moving out (one day).


Engaged 22nd December 2018