Healing
I feel the need to write and share without the fear of judgement of others. I am healing, I’m learning to regulate my emotions, recognizing past traumas, habits and limiting thoughts. I feel like I’m breaking the chain of generational traumas, poverty and pain.
My family, my parents, grandparents, ancestors they all survived a lot of things that may feel so long ago that it barley affects you. But it does trauma and beliefs can be inherited to the next generation it stays stored in your nervous system preventing the new generation from success and happiness but instead just teaches them survival flight, fight, freeze.
I’m giving myself permission to live now I don’t need to survive anymore. I honour and respect the pain I have experienced these last year’s that be loss, grief, unsafe, scared. But as a human I must move forward with my emotions. Emotions are not just in the brain but also in your body. IBS, auto immune diseases, fibromyalgia. It’s all linked you cannot lie to your nervous system.
Your over active nervous system has been in the driver’s seat maybe since the moment you were born, your instinctual reptilian brain sensed danger or chaos. Your parents couldn’t regulate their own emotion’s or you were exposed to an event no one would even think it affected you.
It’s important to move in these times of releasing old traumas let your body feel the pain don’t avoid it. Let it move through your body and leave. Emotional pain won’t kill you. But I believe stored trauma can.
I have unfortunately watched quite a few loved ones leave mine and my partners life. By that I mean passing away. Pretty much the whole of my partners family are gone. I believe that a few reasons were unresolved traumas stored in the body causing the nervous system to over load compromising the immune system.
After watching that happen within a space of 10 years I promised myself I didn’t want to carry this into the next generation. I’m cutting the chord/chain so that me and my partner can live happily even after trauma and loss.
So that when we are ready for children they won’t be born into generational traumas like ourselves.
Be brave acknowledge your pain and let go of stored trauma in your body. If you are interested look at somatic therapy.
You have made it this far in life your body and mind just needs reminding.
Take care,
Layla.
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